My heart...

Can I be honest with you for a minute….  Yes, I would probably be lying if I said we aren't starting to get anxious.  I had a friend tell me today that I don't seem like the type of girl who gets anxious or worries.  hahaha I’m glad I’m putting on a good front. :)  But actually I think we both have been handling it very well.  And it’s only because of our Savior!  But we are getting down to the last few days and Satan is starting to attack. He starts in the head.  He’s like a nagging fly that just won’t go away until you literally slap him with a fly swatter.  He knows just how to attack us and what our weaknesses are.  I have been struggling with discontentment with where my life is right now.  I have thoughts like it’s not fair my husband is sick.  It’s not fair we have to spend so much time at Moffitt.  It’s not fair that we have to be extra conservative with our money because we don't know what the future holds for Justin, It’s not fair that other people are buying houses, new cars, taking fun vacations, etc. all while I’m spending my time and energy on Cancer and learning more than I would have wished too at 30 years old.  But all of those are lies from Satan.  And he loves it when we start to consume our thoughts with things that aren't from our Heavenly Father.  He likes it when we allow him in our life and start to get upset or discontented.  So it’s at times like these that I have to continually be talking to God all day.  Slapping Satan in the face and saying "I rebuke that thought and get out of my head Satan!"  Begging for Gods peace and security.   But isn't it sad that it sometimes takes such difficult trials in our life to really grab ahold of God with every last bit of energy we have.  This is what God desires of us.  He is a jealous God who wants all of our attention.   He wants us to be in constant communication with him throughout every day of our lives.  Not just when we need something.  He wants to be our best friend in good times and in rough times.  He loves and adores us. And he is bigger than any trial, problem, or worry that we face. 

So today I’m choosing to kick Satan out of my head and have faith in the creator of the earth. 

I know many of you reading this are going through much more difficult times than ours.  I know our trial is just a minute compared to some of you.  So stay strong.  Don’t give up.  Hang tight to your Lord n Savior and I promise he won't let you down.  Satan is real, and when he starts to attack your mind, kick him out!  And ask God to wrap you in his arms and to give you peace and I promise he will.   And when that happens you will feel more blessed and content and loved than you could ever imagine. 

And more importantly today I’m choosing to thank God for this trial.  Because it’s through this trial that I’m learning what it means to completely rely on God and to feel his security.  And that’s what feeling blessed is all about!

A few verses that I want to share with you that have helped me through this time:

Psalm 27:1 "The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear?  The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid?"

I Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

Lamentations 3:22-25 "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him, The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him."

Nemeth 8:10  "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

Romans 8:28  "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

Romans 15:13 "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

Romans 5:3-5  "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our suffering, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."